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hi~~!!!

ok im back, later gotta prepare to go to sch,, will be studying with trang today since i havnt done anything worthy for the past few days.. been watching YOG or not been sleeping in the most comfortable weather..so, im blogging now because im bored..ok, ive really been procrastinating for so long..its alr been more thn a week since..sighs..hope i cn get back on track soon!! 2 weeks later will be my exam and now im starting to crave for the 1 and a half holiday tht will come after tht very exam week!

somehow i miss someone.. been reading my past few articles and also reading othr people's blog, it so funny how so much has changed since we graduted,,, i hope everything's the same when we meet agn..bt yeah the only constant one is change so its impossible,bt will be glad to see thm agn!

i wonder if i also changed? bt im still the confused one, im trying to find myself in everyday, myb at this stage i will give chance to those things tht i neglected in the past..its complicated.i hope i find myself soon! and wht true happiness is!

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waaahh!! i feel like i wanna transfer course now, so tht i can have more spare time to find a part time job!! my family is facing a terrible financial crisis now.. i can't bare to watch..well, i dont feel like doing the things tht i want to do anymore, since my family is suffering.. supposedly i had enough money in my bank to pay for my dance fees bt now my bank is getting bankrupt due to my parents constantly borrowing to pay for house bills and other expnses.. now i dont have money for myslf,, and most of all i dont have any part timework to help my parents.. i feel so useless being the eldest daughter in the family..

my weekdays are seriously packed with my course modules which gives me no spare time to work at all.. and saturdays i got dance classes.. i wonder if i will be able to get an excellent gpa to transfer to another course?! most probably i wanna take pharmacy since it only consist of 3 modules which is like 3 hrs a day for the whole week?! heard from my friend.. if i only got 3hrs for sch thn definitely i will be able to work part-time..

well, i guess its impossible to transfer unless u get 4.0 gpa,, tht's wht our lecturer explained, but juz try.. i really dont wanna see my parents so depressed about money.. and most of all im sick.. there's just too much financial problems going on.. sigh..now tht i am old enough to understand, i can feel my parent's burden... i just wanna graduate and find a job as soon as i can..

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sigh,, seriously im still not feeling well, bt finally im going to the hospital tmr!! atlast! i really wanna find out wht's happening to me..

common test..lemme see, so far i only got 1 A,,haha well, ofcourse its my fave subj. obc(: i got 2 B's and 1 C,, so far so good..well, abit dissapointed abt the C tho, (its electrotech, as expected).. if only i was feeling well tht time, simple qns like addition and simplifying i still miss to do..!sigh, anw, past is past..gonna do better in the future!(:

and i think there's really something wrong with me when it comes to guys.. u knw got this guy tht seem to like me, (he keeps on looking& staring at me) fyi i see it in the corner of my eye!lol bt i kept on avoiding him, its not tht i dont like him, just tht its weird being ard guys, you know? haha, and i also find it weird talking to guys,, and also when he smiles at me, iget goosebumps, and its really freaking weird tht i dont want to see him evrytime.when it comes to looks not tht bad, bt still i would choose onew over him!haha,

and another guy from dance class who was my grpmate from the kcc bonding day, who purposely volunteered to partner with me & broke the poky stick so fast in the race as if trying to fin it fast so tht we can get to smooch, omgosh! well he's good-looking,smart-looking, tall (perfect!) erm, probably..bt not really into tht.. he even tried to get my no. aftr the camp.! goosshh.. (but i was like pretending to be in a rush, so din get to hand him,hehe..) and i get this feeling tht he also keeps on looking at me, you know the feeling tht someone is always staring at you from the corner of your eye, bt u just pretend tht you dont see him..got one time i purposely look at him when he was looking at me, thn he was like smiling as if wanted to try to say hi to me, bt i immediately look the other way..!haha, its really v funny!!

i think i know alr why these were happening the past past few days.. its because of my hair,, not really used to letting it down since in secondary sch, i SELDOM or never untie my hair.. well, letting down my hair, i seem so girlish..which is erm...not the used to be me, when im supposed to be a boyish and sporty type..lol, so ya., when my hair really grew very long decided to cut it abit short and rebonded it to get tht boyish feeling agn even though i wont get to tie it alr, (sick of it since been doing it for 10yrs alr!!)

and you know wht, & ofcourse i also put on my boyish clothes which i like..haha.. and u knw wht the 1st guy told me?lol "hey joyce, i din realised you rebonded your hair"LOL! well i was like going to say "do u like it?" HAHA bt i din instead said "ya", end of conversation. ( the inner me tells me tht, "im alr not the girl you used to like! *evil laughs) well, i really like my new hair now since its very soft!((: its like for the 1st time i had a smooth thin hair!

so this operation is successful and i hope no more (staring) alr, coz it gives me creeps!! well, some people may tell me tht im lesbian bt tht's a big NO! i just like girls around, more thn boys, it gives me a comfortable environment((:

& i hope the next time i blog agn, ill be better alr!! get well soon to me!!!(((:

ok, i just found out tht being gay is borne & hormonal, so there's really nothing wrong with tht..haha, well im just saying.. for the past few days me & my mom had been watching ellen on the tv, thn i just noticed tht she's really a good-looking guy/girl, whtever, bt she's a girl, if not thn why would the name be ellen?haha, and she's a got a wife!!OMGosh! her wife is soo pretty tht i couldnt believe tht she was a gay! moreover, her wife only got past girlfriends! omg, really cnt believe it..bt they're super so sweet, both of thm(:

k, here now stomach's growling! next time!!

wow, i blogged agn today! its really v rare nowadays.. sch is juz super! bt really happy tht i have no homeworks or projects or online work these holidays!! can really spend my time relaxing!!((:
so common test was over.. super fast! i knew tht i did v well in the OBC!(my favorite subject!)hehe, ofcourse, Dr. Akasta teaches it, and it doesnt hurt if i fantasize of him like onew for awhile(: although abit chubby and slightly bulgy tummy though!haha!!

so for the rest of the common tests, i bet i will get a 3 Bs? well, afterall i've been really focusing on OBC since it has the most credits!!lol!& ofcourse i like the teacher!haha(more motivation!)LOL

well, its already holidays and tomorrow is my KCC dance class!!really looking forward to learning k-pop dance! i hope we learn ringdingdong first or maybe bonamana would also be fine! speaking of SUJU they would have a super show here soon!! im gonna maintain my bal. account since ive been really lookin forward to it!! shinee would have their comeback this july!there's just so much things goin on...

& my only wish now is to go out with my sec. sch close friends(: i hope i can see them all these holidays!!!